Never Lies

I am a piece of shit.
I would rather be dead than sit here in guilt and watch others suffer around me, because of me.
The only thing I can say, that is completely genuine is.
If I could I would take it back.
But because I didn't think it through, because I was stupid, because I was wrapped up in my own thoughts I ruined something that could have been.
I'm sorry.

been a while

since i've posted.
nothing really much to say..

I haven't changed much, because people don't change, only change opinions. Either been persuaded or seen a different view.

I'm happy, but so very lonely.
I can admit that everything is not perfect.
I'm missing something, or someone.

I've come to realise how much people around me mean to me, and how much they affect my life in the most unbelievable ways.
I've also come to realise how much people I don't care about affect me even more, because I'm too worried about them rather than myself.
Even though they don't mean anything to me, in my mind.
They mean everything to me in the way they affect who I am, and what I'm becoming.
Time to stop.

slow

down.
getting let down everywhere i turn.
why bother?

confessional

as for me.
i really don't give a fuck anymore.
i'm living for myself, i don't care about anyone else apart from family.
friends come and go, and true friends turn out lost friends.
i'm not apart of this game, i'm making my own.

I try not to think about it
I wish there was someone better
I know for a fact I'll never feel that emotion toward someone again
I'm prepared to live alone but not prepared to forget you.

Lyrics.

Wipe those tears from your fucking face
This isn't another song filled with lies told to my face
I wish I never loved you

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
And I will never die from a broken heart

When everything is all said and done
You'll be the one who comes back to me
Well fuck that, you turned your back on me
So fuck you, I'm moving on.

Artist: Carpathian
Song: Love Song
Album: Nothing To Lose (2006)

ponder

time isn't going to move forward with me holding it back.
acceptance